Nakexia stood on the platform of the station, surrounded by a strange silence. In the distance, the sound of the train whistle gradually disappeared in the air, leaving only the heartbreaking echo. His eyes were fixed on the distance, as if waiting for some inevitable ending, but there was no real expectation in his heart. At that moment, he realized that he was not waiting for a specific person or thing, but an invisible force, something that may never have existed. That was Guang Zhui.
The image of the train gradually disappeared, replaced by an endless gray scene, and a faint musty smell filled the air. Na Kexia’s fingers gently stroked his chest, as if he was looking for something, but he found nothing. Perhaps, this is his truest feeling. There is no direction, only aimless wandering. He has been running away from something, and seems to be pursuing a goal, but in the end he found that all his efforts were in vain.
1. The Glimmer of the Light Cone
He remembered that night, the lights in the bar were dim, and the laughter and conversations of people gradually blended into the background, mixing into a noisy noise. At that time, he sat at a table in the corner, quietly looking at the street scene outside the window, his heart filled with endless loneliness. The door of the bar was gently pushed open, and a figure walked in. It was a strange man. He didn’t see the man’s face clearly, but just felt that some strange breath lingered around him.
The man walked to his table and suddenly said: “Are you looking for the light cone?”
That Kexia was stunned, he didn’t understand what the man meant. He had never heard of the word “light cone”. Maybe it was just some nonsense from a drunk in the bar, but he felt an inexplicable tension unconsciously.
The man’s voice was still calm: “The light cone is what you have been pursuing, although you don’t know what it is.”
The corners of Kexia’s mouth rose slightly, revealing a sarcastic smile. He didn’t answer, and the man didn’t continue to ask. It was just that sentence, like an invisible rope, tightly wrapped around him. He began to search for the cone of light. At first, he didn’t know what he was looking for, but he felt empty inside, and always felt that something was waiting for him. As time went by, that feeling became stronger, until he could no longer ignore it.
2. Lost track
The days passed quietly like flowing water. Life in that summer was still monotonous and repetitive. He worked on time, ate on time, occasionally went to some bars or small restaurants for dinner, and then returned to his small apartment. In his opinion, life didn’t seem to have much meaning, everything was so ordinary and boring. However, he knew that no matter how hard he tried to ignore that feeling, it was always quietly growing in his heart.
Sometimes, he would stand in front of the window, staring at the city lights after nightfall, feeling an unspeakable loneliness. He seemed to understand that there were some things in this world that could not be touched. The cone of light might be such a thing. It is always in front of you, but always out of reach.
He began to wonder what he was looking for? Was it that kind of illusory goal, or just an inner sustenance? He was not sure. Whenever he tried to grab the light cone, it would slip away from his fingers, leaving only an empty space.
He couldn’t help but think of the stranger in the bar, the man who once told him “You are looking for the light cone”. At that moment, he finally understood that the man was not talking about something real, but reminding him of the emptiness and desire in his heart.
3. Deep tunnel and exit
That moment, Xia suddenly stood up and grabbed the railing next to the subway station, as if he wanted to break free from this world. The outside world was blurry, and the roar of the subway was like waves, invading his eardrums. He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and tried to calm himself down. However, nothing changed. He was still on this endless track, not knowing when he could stop.
He realized that he was not escaping from the outside world, but from the loneliness in his heart. The light cone may be a symbol of his attempt to find redemption. Those invisible pursuits and confusions are the pain and desire in his deepest heart. He can’t change these, maybe he shouldn’t change them at all. The trajectory of fate has long been determined.
At that moment, he felt as if he had walked into an endless tunnel, with no end ahead, only long darkness and uneasy waiting. No one knew whether he would find the light cone, perhaps the light cone did not belong to this world. It’s just that something is destined to disappear on this road.
4. The end of silence
At that moment, Xia lowered his head and looked at the note in his hand – a stranger’s phone number. He suddenly realized that what he had been pursuing was not a clear goal, but a desire for something deep in his heart. The light cone, perhaps, is the self he never dared to look directly at. He picked up the phone and dialed the number.
A familiar voice came from the other end of the phone. It was a warm feeling, and he realized that perhaps he no longer needed to pursue the empty light cone, but could start to walk towards himself. When the phone rang, he felt that he had finally found the exit, although this was not the answer he had expected.
“I understand,” he said softly, as if responding to himself. “Everything is over.”
At this moment, time and space seemed to stagnate, and the lights of the station became blurred. At that moment, Xia felt a sense of peace he had never felt before.