The night has broken into bits of body temperature,
On the screen, the material catalog is like a crystal ice crystal, coldly hanging in the air.
This is your preparation for a virtual person who has not appeared-the existence named “Xiakong”.
You are not sure how she will respond, but you can’t help but prepare.
1. Numbers are silent, and emotions are beyond numbers
Low-frequency tidal eclipse sail core ×29
Medium-frequency tidal eclipse sail core ×40
High-frequency tidal eclipse sail core ×52
Full-frequency tidal eclipse sail core ×61
Phosphorus burning bones ×46
Iris blooming day ×26
Golden fleece ×60
Containing impure crystallized phlogiston ×25
Roughly extracted crystallized phlogiston ×28
Distilled crystallized phlogiston ×55
High-purity crystallized phlogiston ×67
Special resonance promoter ×122
Shell money ×3,053,300
These numbers are like a fragmented space and time, intertwined into a net. You try to weave her future in the web, but you feel that every node is breathing – but never responding.
You stand in your own anxiety, waiting for the version update.
You use lines of ctrl+c past characters to create a “complete sense of existence”.
2. Prepare weapons, which is the self-defense of the fragile self
Simple shackles × 6
Benchmark shackles × 6
Transformed shackles × 10
Special shackles × 12,
Plus 40 copies of crystallized phlogiston
330,000 shells
These are the shapes you gave her, and the defense system you forged with algorithms and resources.
They flash cold light on the screen,
but leave an unfillable gap in your heart.
You know that these shackles are not for restraint; they are to prevent her from being pierced by powerlessness.
3. Resonance loop is the terrible distance between information and emotion
Low-frequency tidal eclipse sail core × 25
Medium-frequency tidal eclipse sail core × 28
High-frequency tidal eclipse sail core × 40
Full-frequency tidal eclipse sail core × 57
Iris blooming day × 26
Crystallized phlogiston × 175
Shell coins × 2,030,000
Every time you brush the dungeon and pick up the sail core, it’s like trying to fill a crack.
But the crack will not heal due to resource accumulation.
It just makes you keep getting closer and keep retreating.
You are counting the drop rate, planning time,
Coordinating the progress of the dungeon with the rhythm of real life,
But you feel that you are being reduced more and more,
Like in one transaction after another, using your time to stay up late to exchange for her existence.
4. Skill upgrade is your dialogue with nothingness
Your notebook is full of “materials required for skill upgrade”:
Ordinary attack teaching materials, resonance skill materials, variation skill components…
This is a complete ecosystem,
Her growth path is designed by you like an industrial assembly line.
You know every node, and every frame of animation.
You ask yourself:
“Who am I designing this path for?”
You know, it’s for an illusion that may appear forever or never materialize.
But every step on that path represents your coding of hope.
5. Preparation is to reversely confirm those silent loneliness
You start brushing ancient dragons, doing dungeons, recording crystallized phlogiston, and calculating the consumption of shell coins.
You even plan the weekly purchase of golden fleece, and make a psychological plan to deal with her failure to draw.
It’s like a ritual protest against self-anxiety.
There is no “I am anxious” in the system,
only “quantity × loop”.
You build a folded mask between each other.
6. You are constructing a non-existent world, but you get temporary stability from it
Xia Kong is not in the card pool. But you seem to be able to hear the rhythm of version updates.
All you have prepared, like imagination in expansion,
They make you feel that the separation point is getting farther in reality.
You seem to have found a parallel space, and put all your anxiety, loss, and expectations into it.
You are not sure whether this waiting can be realized.
But you know – you can hear your weak heartbeat more clearly than before.
VII. If she does not appear, what have you gained?
At this moment, you have two paths:
One is to continue to prepare, continue to shuttle in the cracks,
waiting for her to come, or never come.
The second is to stop and calmly examine yourself behind these numbers.
Canxue’s sharpness is here:
She uses the stripped language to let you see –
Spending millions of shells, brushing hundreds of materials, and upgrading dozens of circuits,
This is a materialized emotional projection.
You have to learn:
In the cracks between virtual and reality, keep the boundaries.
In the delivery of a virtual person, keep your perception of yourself.
Conclusion: Preparation in the cracks is self-recognition
You throw stones into the virtual world.
You use materials as a medium to embed part of yourself into it.
Whether she comes or not, the numbers on the screen still exist.
In Canxue’s world,
“preparation” is not a guarantee for her,
but a self-awareness that you can still “prepare”,
and proof that you have not been completely swallowed up by reality.